So, the 22.11 is coming around the corner and with it of course – my annual pre-birthday depression too. Since this year I don’t have the requirements (space, money, time) for applying the number one way of fighting a pre-birthday depression, I’m so glad that I find another way to feel better about myself right before my birthday.
In the past couple of days I’ve been sleepy, shiftless, sluggish, sick, I’ve been overeating, doing nothing, being mean, angry, bitchy, touchy etc. – the usual stuff. Today there was this really cool ballet-show that I wanted to see and of course I wanted to see it with someone. So I was really exited that one of my new classmates said, that she wanted to see it too. But as you can guess, she turned me down in the last minute, so I went to see it on my own.
For some people this may be nothing special or unusual, but for me it was like exactly what I needed. I never go to shows on my own, I don’t like eating on my own etc. But today I was just thinking: “Fuck you other people, fuck you feeling bad before my birthday – I want to see that show and I’m going to see it!” This attitude just made me feel better about myself. (ok, I didn’t talk to anyone in the break, but I still have to save me some stuff for next year, right?)
So I go to the theater and there is only ONE student ticket available at the box office and nobody has picked it up 5 minutes before the show. The man on the box office said to me “Spontaneity pays off sometimes”. Hell yeah it does!!!
Conclusion: Note to self for the future – as assumed, spontaneity pays off sometimes, so if I feel like doing or feeling something – I’ll just do it 😉
PS. I know that I could simply watch a Nike commercial and learn the same thing, but coming to the conclusion that way just felt so good…